5-Cell

Greetings! I'm Allison. I'm 23 and I have a degree in Film and Physics. I work in PR for a popular tech company.

I'm a caffeine addict, I horseback ride, knit, and play the piano. I am both a scientist and an artist.

I post pictures of people I admire, beauty I appreciate, and things that I love.

Also, I have a lot of thoughts.


**I track the tag pentachoron**

Note: I am NOT pro-ana/mia/selfharm
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pentachoron:

disorderedfacts:

It’s a true fact that telling a bulimic person to just eat a normal amount so they don’t have to throw up will cure them automatically, forever, removing any body image issues in the process.

Like that time a dietician told me that if I “just told…

Right because OF COURSE it’s not possible to binge if you’re not hungry???? I mean wow it’s almost like forcing yourself to eat food even when you’re not hungry is a mental disorder or something…….!

Dietician logic never ceases to amaze me.

disorderedfacts:

It’s a true fact that telling a bulimic person to just eat a normal amount so they don’t have to throw up will cure them automatically, forever, removing any body image issues in the process.

Like that time a dietician told me that if I “just told myself I wasn’t allowed to purge after binging then I’d eventually stop binging because I don’t want to get fat” and problem solved.

…………………….Like what????????????

As a means of social control, humor may function to express approval or disapproval of social form and action, express common group sentiments, develop and perpetuate stereotypes, relieve awkward or tense situations, and express collective, sub-rosa approbation of action not explicitly approved. Humor as expressed in the controlled laugh or smile may serve as a means of communication, signaling the intent and nature of communicating parties (Stephenson, 1951:570)

Stephenson, R. M. “Conflict and Control Functions of Humor.” American Journal of Sociology56 (1951), 569-74. (via socio-logic)

I pretty much use humor solely as a form of anxiety relief/protection and social control. Like when someone tries to make conversation about dieting and I start talking about how highly effective The Butter Diet is…

(via socio-logic)

triangle-pill:

These are some of my thoughts about Gwyneth Olwyn and Your Eatopia. They are my own observations and they are anecdotal. It is none of my business if you do or do not follow MM. There is no one “right” way to recover. These are just my personal thoughts about the process, as I’ve gone through…

I found some help and comfort in Gwyneth’s posts (as I heard one person call it—“recovery porn”) and there is a lot of validity in what she says— I particularly agree with not fearing that which your ED is afraid of, and that includes not setting upper calorie limits on yourself (though I disagree with requiring calorie minimums—you can’t trade one fear for another and so you can’t arbitrarily decide when you’re “not eating enough” and become frightened if you don’t hit a certain number when you are honestly not hungry).

But she, as a person, and the toxic community she has created and enabled is very very concerning. I wonder about her motives often. She censors her forums under the pretense that she is keeping it safe and on-topic, but what she is really doing is hiding all disagreement, and even harmless questions (An example: I saw one user post in great distress, honestly wanting to follow MM for his restriction but was afraid of re-kindling his BED. He was asking for support and reassurance to keep recovering from his current restriction, and instead, the entire thread was deleted without warning. He posted later to ask why, saying that he was still very anxious and was feeling even more alone now, and Gwyneth responded very coldly saying that he had gone against the rules in his post and that she was “tired of having to explain why” and so she literally left him at that.)

It isn’t science if you have all the answers and tell anyone who questions you that they are “still in the ED mindset” (that is, if you don’t delete and censor those differing opinions/questions instead of responding at all). If you get defensive and think all people asking questions are attacking you, then it’s time for YOU to reevaluate what you’re standing up for.

Seriously, that’s exactly why it took us forever to agree that the earth is actually not flat. Some people got offended we even questioned it.

(via triangle-pill-deactivated201408)

(via pluisea)

Do you have a weird aversion to too much sugar?

Like, it’s a completely physical reaction—when I have too much sugar or something REALLY sugar-dense (like, more than two cookies, or a large piece of cake, M&Ms, gummy bears, etc.) I honestly feel really on edge and weird.

Am I just not used to sugar-highs because I usually purge when I get to that point? I really hate it, and it makes me want to avoid really sugary foods (which is fine, I’m not *super* bothered by that) but times when I accidentally get in that sugar-high state, I feel REALLY anxious and unwell and I don’t really know what do to about it.

Does that make any logical sense at all? Has anyone else experienced this?

(via pluisea)